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Middle Aged (35-54)Transcript
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love thyself. Today I woke up and decided to press play. No more pausing, waiting, or unnecessary delay. I've accepted. I can't go back to fix and rewind. I don't want to relive or fast forward time. I'll grow from the lessons bestowed upon me, and no, with full faith, here is where I should be, no questions to ask, no doubt left to fill. I'll remain on my task of peace and free will I work from the slumber with intentions to dive in all the discomfort we run from and hide, no malice, no judgment, no hatred, no pride, no ego, no torture, no place for this to reside. Farewell to the creature who had not one clue. Hello to this beautiful soul! It's way overdue. We spend the first half of our lives learning how to obey rules and what's expected of us. Some of us break free from expectations and spend the next half exploring life on our terms, realigning with our purpose, finding our passions. Others aren't as lucky, forcing the University to push us into directions. Turned into lessons. Heart breaks, and tears, living the true definition of insanity until we finally get it. I've been there in the ugliest, darkest, coldest, loneliest places, thinking I deserved it every time ready to surrender into a deeper hole. Something happened one day I snatched up the storm information and flipped it upside down. I embraced my tears and was happy I could love so hard. I felt my heart aching in pain and told myself this will pass. I knew I had been here before, but this time felt different. I had the power to control how deep I wanted to fall. Emotional pain lasts a few minutes and anything after that is the energy we are giving it to keep it alive. What about giving that energy back to source yourself and keeping you alive? Love yourself. I'm sorry for torturing you with the most negative thoughts in every situation. I'm sorry for keeping you sheltered. I'm sorry for downplaying your intelligence and making others feel better. I'm sorry for not taking care of you. I'm sorry for abusing your heart. I'm sorry for turning my back on you. I'm sorry we're not loving you. I'm sorry for never thinking you were good enough. I'm sorry for allowing you to think your life was worthless. I'm sorry for allowing anyone to dictate your feelings. I'm sorry for being your enemy. I'm sorry for not letting you grow. I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry for not being your friend. I'm sorry I didn't inspire you with creativity. I'm sorry for not letting us live. I've been working on loving myself to a capacity where no one can infiltrate, manipulate or influence who I am. I used to have this wall up when I met people letting them in layer by layer. Until I didn't recognize who I was anymore. My energy was heavy. I was in a constant worry and I felt last. I was right where others wanted me to be vulnerable and unfocused. I had no voice. I felt guilty for being creative and I felt my purpose was to make others feel good, even if that meant I didn't. I made people uncomfortable in my comfort. These layers were everything that made me who I am and for mere acceptance of others, I allowed them to nip away and steal whatever they can strengthen themselves. I was broken down to nothing until all I had left was a reflection of someone who wanted to be loved.
Tags
Articulate, Authentic, Believable, Brave, Brooding, Calming, Deadpan, Genuine, Inspirational, Emotional