27 and Lost [Podcast about art, mental health, & adulthood - English]
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EnglishVoice Age
Young Adult (18-35)Accents
Filipino (Tagalog)Transcript
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Hello. I'm anya I'm turning 27 soon and I am terrified. Okay. I don't know if anyone out there in the future is even watching this video, but I'm making it anyway for future me at least to have us sort of like a time capsule. Although I'm pretty sure I will be cringing hard at this. At least I have something to laugh about. You know what else is funny? Like we all just seem to be programmed like we're supposed to be getting somewhere like we're rushing off to someplace that we don't know where, but the last one to get there is one big loser. Here we go again with the millennial angst. But you get what I mean. As Children, we were asked, what do you want to be when you grow up As if growing up is some magical part of gold at the end of the rainbow that we would want to reach. But actually kids enjoy being kids while it lasts. It's all downhill from there. At 16, 18, we start to make a list of things we want to have achieved by that time, or 20 or 25. If you're a bit kinder to yourself. Usually it's the adventure kind of things like travel or getting that dream job meeting your celebrity crush, getting a tattoo, coloring your hair and then by the time we're 25 we start listing things you want to have achieved by the time we're 30 then things start getting serious. We talk about buying a house, buying a car investments, starting your own successful business, getting married, having kids. all these things that are supposed to mean that we've made it in life. Like we figured the answer to whatever the problem is. Meanwhile I'm here Turning 27 soon and I still wake up most days not knowing what day it is. What I do know for sure is that I am in love with creating. That's not to say that I don't get frustrated when I don't have any idea what to write or when I don't end up liking how it turns out or when I don't get the time or the resources or the energy to get up and just write or do something and honestly just embracing the arts at the time when you're supposed to be providing for your family or just spending your spare time resting your aching back seems so futile. Not a lot of people will understand. The artists need to create. Sometimes I still feel guilty for spending time writing songs or making a collage or carving a stamp. I made this by the way, or making this video because I didn't make any money out of it. So I must have wasted my time, right? Except that these moments when I get to create something from the ramblings in my brain or the work of my hands or my voice are the moments when I feel the most alive. This is what I actually want to be doing and I don't know, I just I wish it were easier to exist as an artist In the Philippines, I wish I didn't have to explain why I'm wasting my time writing songs for 10 strangers on the Internet to listen. And then of course there is the matter of having an audience. Yes, yes, you create because you love the act of creating, but also you want other people to appreciate what you do. There's this thrill that you get when a stranger tells you that neither day to listen to that thing that you did, it's because as an artist, you take pride in your work and when you release it to the world, like your very own child, you want people to recognize it or embrace it, cherish it as much as you do, you wanted to be seen and heard and to inspire even one other person at the other side of the screen. So you can say it's not all for nothing and somehow you have a chance to be remembered someday. Hopefully. Okay, if my songs are all I ever get to leave as a legacy, then I say, not bad. I like my songs, I'm proud of every single one of them. They're all a part of my soul. They all represent my identity at one point in my life. Even the parts that I'm not proud of. They all speak about the message that I want to share the universe and anyone who might be interested listening. So even if they're not perfect, even if I'm not perfect, I share them here in this space with you, whoever you are, if you're listening And yes, I'm 27 and I haven't proven anything yet. But really, what is there to prove? Hi, I'm releasing a self produced self published zines, ep called Mom avoid it looks like this but smaller, this is the original manuscript, if you will, it has the lyrics of my original songs and some other musings and art about being lost at 27. I'd like to thank the people who sponsored this ZP. Half of the amount raised from sponsorships was used to buy books for a small Children's library that I started in july with the help of my mother who bakes cookies for the kids, sometimes other parents here in our community and some friends who donated books. Thank you. Thank you so much. I'll be releasing and online copy of the scene along with seven songs on october 21 8 PM Philippine time. But I'm also planning to sell physical copies soon. So stay tuned if you're interested in that if you made it this far in the video, thank you so much. Bye
Tags
Real Person, Authentic, Awkward, Calm, Calming, Casual, Comforting, Deadpan, Deep, Laid Back, Uplifting, Filipino (Tagalog)