Depressing Woman Voice- Crying, Sad, Emotional
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EnglishVoice Age
Young Adult (18-35)Accents
North American (General)Transcript
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I torture myself and I don't know how to stop it. I try so hard to think positive. And for the most part I do, I am. But keeping myself that way is the hardest thing in the world. It creeps up on me out from the shadows of my mind. I hate to sound like some cheesy novel, but it's true. Whatever I have going on deep inside of myself, I do my best to ignore. And most days everything is good. But when it hits when this sudden rush of negative energy comes by, it's like a wave of depression, I get so down about the direction of my life. Am I making the right decisions? Am I being who I am meant to be? I get low about the things I do and I second guessed my choices after I've already made them. And then sometimes days later I changed my mind again and go back to the earlier choice I made about the same damn thing back and forth, back and forth, like a circle of confusion. I feel like I'm going crazy when this happens when I can't seem to figure out a solution to my path. It's like a disease in my brain. I get trapped inside myself and I get lost in this really lonely place until finally I find some inner strength and I ripped forward in a new light. But I know that it's only a matter of time before I go back to that that way of being and it scares me, I don't want to be that way. I just want to be happy and want to know that I'm living my life with purpose. I don't want to have any regrets when I get old and look back on the life I've lived because I won't be able to go back and that would kill me in the end. I may need help. I don't know if this is something that I should see a doctor about like a therapist or I don't believe in medication, never have. Maybe I'm too emotional and take myself too Damn seriously. I don't know. I don't what do you think? Huh? How do I put an end to these phases that I go through?