Feeling Broken.....
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Let me just start off by saying this in no way. Are you broken? And if your spirit guided you here, then there is a message in these words for you. You just didn't happen to stumble into this. No, the universe felt you needed to hear this message and be careful. My friend that you don't allow that little voice in your head, the ego to tell you that you don't need to listen. That's where the internal conflict often begins, begins with the ego trying to remain in control, directing you to chase something versus being something or being someone. You see the feeling of being broken sometimes translates to operating with a broken mindset and spirit often directed and started by your thoughts, your thinking and then this is supported by your emotions and your feelings. And then this vibrational energy reaches a physical point where you start to manifest it and see it in your reality. I can't tell you how many times I've taken myself through this agonizing process and it can easily start with a situation that takes place in your life. And because of the energy associated with the situation, one can fall so deeply into the energy vortex lowering their vibrational frequency. And then one starts asking asking themselves questions like, you know, why did this happen to me? Why can I get my life together or what's wrong with me? And these subtle thoughts can often start off this way and then they begin to build momentum because now you start recalling memories of past events and experiences that you've been through. When we take ourselves from being in a moment, from being present, we then easily lose our identity and then attached to something lower than who we truly are. And II, I call this lower energy. The shadow figure, you know, this shadow figure appears in your life and all the shadow figure is, is an illusionary being that takes form within your spirit. And this is where it gets really complicated because this new form, this shadow figure that's now attached to your spirit, you start to get comfortable with it and this is mostly where people start to feel inadequate about themselves and start to feel broken. Now, as one is going through this experience being in the fog, one never asks, how long am I gonna stay here? One never asks how long do I let this shadow figure or this illusionary being stay in control of what's going on in my life. We never ask this because we seldom recognize that we're in an illusionary trap to begin with. What we do start asking is why can I get ahead in life or why is this happening to me? And when we start asking these questions, this is where I normally see people being in something called the victim zone. And the victim zone is just another illusion that we've created within ourselves that says we have no power over how we feel or no power to get out of the situation that we're in. And if you're really truthful with yourself, you can probably recall many scenarios in your life where you felt stuck. You might be listening to this now and feeling stuck right now, you know, stuck in a certain situation based on certain circumstances or you may be stuck with someone's energy. Now, you may be asking Ace, how the **** can I be stuck with someone's energy? Well, it's really quite simple. You know, you could be in a relationship for an example, a relationship where how that individual talks to you and treats you has held you hostage and guess what? Being held hostage is a form of feeling broken because you've lost all power to end that relationship. At least that's the illusion that the shadow figure within you has created for you to believe. And again, because you're in the victim zone, you've lost all power and understanding of how to regain your power. You don't know how to come up out of it. And then what happens is that you move from this feeling of being broken, feeling like a hostage. And over time you now start to feel comfortable. You ever wonder why someone stays in an abusive relationship. And again, I'm just using a relationship as an example. Well, it's because it becomes part of the norm. See, when we lose ourselves in a situation, we lose our identity. And then we get to a point where it's acceptable to be a hostage, acceptable to be on our knees, It's acceptable to take this abuse from another individual. And as time goes on, we remain in this situation and it begins to fit like a glove, it begins to feel ok. Now your friends, your family members, they're on the outside screaming like what the **** are you doing? You know, they're trying to bring you back over into the world of reasoning and you know, you need to do this, that and the other. But in your world, you don't see it that way. Now, yes, every once in a while a situation may flare up in the relationship and you might get fed up and say enough is enough and you contemplate exiting out of the relationship. But you know why that doesn't always work is because first of all, you had to get there through anger. But as your anger comes down and your emotions and feelings are coming down, guess what you do, you go right back in to the same situation and individuals do this because it's simply habit it's all, you know, it's what you've been doing over and over again. So you go back to the situation, you know, you should be out of and again, over time, this feeling of being broken, feeling inadequate, feeling worthless, feeling that you're not enough starts to develop in your physical reality all around your life and you latch on to this new shadow figure identity. Now, the biggest thing we miss when we find ourselves in these scenarios is that this was part of our creation and it's hard for people to really own that. You know, this scenario, whatever scenario that we're in with this toxic relationship, guess what? We created it. We did. And a lot of people don't really want to take ownership of that. They want, they don't want to take ownership with that at all. You see, creation is not about good or bad, productive or not productive. Creation is what it is. Creation, creating something and creations can work for you and they can very well work against you. So again, using the relationship or this relationship as an example, if a person stays in a toxic relationship, then they begin to grow in its ongoing creation as time moves on and it is becoming more and more normal and as it becomes more and more normal, this continuation creates more of the same in their reality. And the other thing I wanna share with you is this, these types of creations can take place in any aspects or in any categories in your life, it could take place in your job, it could take place in other relationships. You know, whether it's a relationship with your sibling, your parents, your kids. So I don't want anybody to be mistaking that this can't affect you in other areas of your life. In fact, it can easily bleed to the categories of your life if you're not careful. You know, there was a time where I felt extremely worthless in my life. You know, I didn't have the high school diploma, no college degree. I wasn't the so called good kid with the good grades that went to school, graduate honors. No. Ace took a different route and it wasn't until I went within and started to work on myself that I raised my confidence and got rid of the broken mindset that I had. And you should have seen me at first because, you know, I just used to outwork everyone around me to compensate for that degree I didn't have with the higher education I never got. But then at a certain point I realized from going within that the only individual that could validate me was myself. So the first line of validation is that the only person that can validate who and what you are is you no one else, no group of, of people can do that for you. Now, people can judge you all day long and believe me, they will. But the validation book has to stop with you. But you have to know that deep within yourself. And again, you know, you can create a situation where you need validation from people. You can look for validation from your degrees. You know, because a lot of people do that, they go out and they get all these degrees and they use them as a symbol measuring how big or how successful they are and what they, they also look down on individuals like myself who have no formal education and say, oh Ace is a bum and it's OK. And please, I'm not knocking anyone who pursues higher education. The individual that I am today, trust me is accumulation of an accumulation of hundreds and hundreds of books that I've read. So I'm in no way. Am I knocking education? All I'm saying is this one should not use their degrees as a measuring rod as a measuring stick to validate who they are because in doing that, you're saying that you need something outside of yourself to make you feel special within them. Now, people also do the same thing with money, you know, so if I have a million dollars and you don't, then I'm much better than you. You know, people use money to classify people and create statuses with that based on how much money you have. You know, it amazes me that centuries ago that a peasant was considered the scum of the earth, you know, because they didn't have any money and that certain marriages back then could only take place with people or with other families that had the same caliber of money. Totally crazy. And again, all of these examples that I'm talking about here are just internal creations. Remember they're just shadow figures that have been created to use something outside of us to gauge our inner worth. All you have to do is just realize that all of this is created to appear real because the truth is this, no one's soul is worth more than another. And a lot of times we miss this understanding and this is why oftentimes people feel broken, they feel worthless, they feel inadequate. And a lot of times it's tied to the materialistic world around us because the majority of people look to who has this and who has that and they use that as a measuring stick. So if you're in a mansion and I'm in a tent, then you're better than me. And if I'm driving a bands and you're driving a Camry, well, then I'm better than you and guys just for the record. I am driving a Camry. But this is what's interesting. There's some people who have the mansions and had the cars but behind closed doors, they're broken down within. Now, they don't show this outwardly because they're validated by the masses, the masses have validated them because of the lifestyle they have but trust me on the inside, they're living a life of ****, living a life of turmoil. You see, one can reach a point where they've achieved so much, accomplished so much in acquiring these materialistic things in life. But they often lose understanding that it's been the ego, it's been the ego that's been in control all this time. And so when, when one has this feeling of that they have accomplished or they have conquered the world, then the question that normally comes next is now what? Because this individual feels empty and this person starts to realize that all of these materialistic things that they have, they absolutely mean nothing. And again, there's absolutely nothing wrong with having a mansion or Benz. I don't want the message to get twisted or missed here. What I'm saying is that when we use these things as measuring sticks, when we use these things and have them as at the center of who we are, when we use these things to govern our worth, or when we feel these things can make us happy, that's where we go wrong. There are a lot of lost souls out here who have been a slave to the ego, the shadow figure as I call it. And they've lost understanding that the ego that this shadow figure has controlled most of their life. And if you know anything about the ego, the eagle works like this as soon as the ego gets one thing. It has you boarding another train chasing after something else and on and on and on and on and on, it goes and the individual that's usually doing the chasing, they lose themselves. So if you're listening to this podcast and you're starting to be like, wow, I, I'm feeling like I'm this individual that ace is talking about jumping from one train to another. Then, hey, I, I don't want you to, you know, going into any guilt or start feeling bad or anything. The, the first, the first step in turning anything around is first recognizing. So first I would ask you to just slow down, you know, slow all the way down and start to notice the things that are taking place around you. This will be a good time for you to start reflecting on some of the patterns that have been playing over and over again in your life, start identifying some of those shadow figures that have embedded themselves in your spirit. And I want to let you in on a little secret. Sometimes there may be more than one of them, you know, taking on different personalities. Ok? I've seen so many shadow figures and a lot of people including myself. Ok? Um Yeah, there are a lot of characters that A's had attached to him at one time and I still have a few now that I'm working on. But once you can recognize and begin to notice this, then the true opportunity for transformation now presents itself now you have some possibilities. Now you have some hope. Now you have the ability to move some of these cobwebs, you know, out of your space. And the other thing I would ask you to do is spend more time with yourself and start to pay closer attention to the internal conversations that you're having with self. You know, some of the biggest conversations you have with yourself are internally and once you start to pay attention, you'll know where you're at, you'll know how deep you went and what you really need to do to start to turn that around. And over time, you'll start to see the illusions for what they are and begin to deal with them and cope with them and eventually remove them because by them being removed, what's happening is that you are surfacing into being more of who you are. And hey, by all means, if you need to go back and listen to this for a few times do that because II, I really believe that the more you listen to this things will start to make sense and then you'll start to reach a new understanding of who you really are. So love and respect guys. And I look forward to talking to each and every one of you soon.