Demo Audio
Description
Vocal Characteristics
Language
EnglishVoice Age
Young Adult (18-35)Accents
Kenyan (East Africa)Transcript
Note: Transcripts are generated using speech recognition software and may contain errors.
you go to jail? Hey there. Happy thursday evening. Here I am. Again, having missed another date night. Don't have excuses. But let me try and tell you what happened. I had this school plan of how my busy schedule will be able to accommodate all of my work. It was meant to be a perfect plan. I was going to create time. I was going to be able to finish the tasks that I had at hand. But I got swamped. I lost track of time and my body and mind quickly got fatigued. I'm one of those people who are not, I'm not really good at complaining or looking at problems and staying in this situation. one of those people who powers through things, undoubtedly this could be a weakness in some perspective, but to me it works as a strength so far. And looking back at our last date, we were all about forgiving ourselves and moving for knowing that mistakes or better yet hard choices are going to be part of our lives. So let me ask, how many times have you looked back on a choice that you made with the right intention? But in the end the outcome or the result is more painful that you can ever anticipate. How many times did you trust somebody or something to be there for you and they violated that trust? Maybe it's your boss, Maybe it's your friend, Maybe it's your partner or even yourself. The question remains, how many times often we are so eager or keen to power through the difficult situations in our lives without fully grasping the lessons that are there to be learned. We usually just want the quick fix solution. So let's say you've forgiven yourself, what's the next cause of action? Most times, it's usually to stay away from the thing that hurt you or the person that hurt you. For instance, if you're in a relationship or friendship and it broke you often when you get through that period of time, it's usually to stay away from relationships and friendships to isolate yourself to avoid the same things that hurt you. That's where we come up with phrases like south Carolina one self love one on one. You know, the lot we usually become a shade of our former selves. The slightest mention of relationships or things related to that takes us off. Or maybe it's not even relationships, Maybe it's working in an organization or working in a company or working for people or working with people or maybe it's just the thought of being replaceable. So many instance you could put yourself in. I've constantly thought about how many times I've had to forgive myself. I've made decisions that I thought would have been the end decision or the good decision for that matter and the outcome of those decisions or not what they were supposed to be. But I've had to forgive myself so many times from being a team leader or leading a team to the teams that I'm being led, do things like family to things like friendships, even relationships and even business. Every choice I have made that has gone south or has taken me through an extensive period of grief. I've had to forgive myself. And especially when it comes to people so many times I've held back from people have tried my best to avoid them to avoid how to solve a problem. You know, I tend to forget about it, but I don't tend to let that thing go. And I've come to learn that forgiveness in his own sense has to cost you something. You forgiving yourself will have to cost you all those memories that we replay in our minds when we feel sad or when we want to invoke a certain emotion inside us as human beings. We have a limited tolerance to feeling good. What that simply means is we usually tend to anticipate that bad things are going to happen at the peak of when we're feeling good. When we reach this upper limits, we manufacture thoughts that make us sad or make us feel sad and it's the most human thing to do. And the unfortunate thing about that is we tend to replay every single memory that we have and we tell ourselves how bad we are and how we don't deserve any better. We don't experience or we don't deserve to experience new things. So we keep falling back on those memories and condemning ourselves to the fact that we've lost and I don't blame anyone for that. But I think it's time you and I reconcile ourselves back to the place of forgiving ourselves and allowing ourselves to be loved. I strongly believe that love is a beautiful experience and it doesn't have to be romantic. It could be any other form. Someone said to me once that food is a form of love and yet to fully understand that. But I appreciate the feedback. Nonetheless, loving ourselves doesn't necessarily mean that we shun or we cross everyone else out of our lives. But learning the fact that people will hurt you. Men and women will hurt you, but always getting back up and keeping on the fight. That's where the true victory lies. Especially to you ladies. You've had almost 100 years of being hurt and being looked down on years of abuse and discrimination, years of lies and deceit, especially from us, from being told that you're not good enough to being told that if you do this, you would be better. And I know guys also get hurt. And that's a story for another day. But I just know for a fact that you may be holding yourself back, locking out your food potential while the same people who hurt you out here thriving. It's easier said than done to be fair. I could be sitting here and saying how this is so much easier. We could be better. We could always be better. We could always do this and that. But the proof is I'm not the finished article and I don't believe myself to be one, but I do believe that I make daily conscious efforts to be a better version of myself, regardless of the things that I go through. No one said it was going to be easy. But one person once told me that when you're going through a season, don't just go through it, grow through it. And I thought that was really profound. But I hope that talking to you at least allows us to be able to Take the 1st step. This journey isn't easy and it's quite long to be honest. But I hope that you take a chance and start again and not be afraid to start again every time you get knocked down. Unfortunately, that's all I have for today. And I hope to see you next thursday, fingers crossed. But for now have a great weekend. This has been your friendly neighborhood boy child and peace