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Auidobook Memoir The Kindness of Strangers

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Voice Over • Audiobooks
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Vocal Characteristics

Language

English (North American)

Voice Age

Middle Aged (35-54)

Accents

US Midwest (Chicago, Great Lakes)

Transcript

Note: Transcripts are generated using speech recognition software and may contain errors.
I'm sitting in my car, parked in a condo complex down the road from my office near San Francisco. It's lunchtime, but the turkey sandwich rest untouched. On the passenger seat, I barely noticed the dough on her phone step by the car window. It's a golden California day, and I'm crying. I turned 37 this week. I've been a newspaper reporter for a decade. The pay and perks air good. I've traveled all over the world. I live in a nice apartment with the beautiful girlfriend. There are people who love me. But all of that is little consolation when you know you're a coward. If I were told I was going to die today, I'd have to say I never took a gamble. I played life too close to the vest. I was never up, and I was never down the perfect chill, wiping tears from my eyes. I know it's time to bet or fold. Just this once. I want to know what it feels like to shove all of my chips in the pot and go for broke. My final destination is Cape Fear, North Carolina, a symbol for all the fears. I know I'll have to conquer If I'm going to go the distance. If I make it to Cape Fear, it will be is a different man from the one who starts the journey. I'm afraid I've been afraid my whole life. I was born scared. I grew up afraid of the baby sitter, the mailman, the birds in the trees, the next door neighbor's cat. I'm afraid of the dark. I'm afraid of the ocean. I'm afraid of flying. I'm afraid of the city. And I'm afraid of the wilderness. I'm afraid of crowds and I'm afraid to be alone. I'm afraid of failure and I'm afraid of success. I'm afraid of fire. Lightning, earthquakes. I'm afraid of snakes. I'm afraid of bats. I'm afraid of bears. I'm afraid of spontaneous human combustion. I'm afraid of losing an arm. I'm afraid of losing a leg. I'm afraid of losing my mind. Yes, and I'm afraid of dying too. But what really scares the **** out of me is living. I'm afraid