The miscarriage project
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Chapter four The Tale of a Chicago friend, June 3rd 2016 since starting my blog and documenting my grief journey. Several women have shared their tragic miscarriage, stillborn or infant loss stories with me. This testimony is from one such woman, a friend from our Chicago days with her permission I share and summarize her story May 26, 2016. Thank you for sharing about the loss of your child. Just wanted to let you know that we know what you're going through. I guess we too lost a child last month. It was early as well, maybe 4 to 5 weeks but I started bleeding on april 26 then it was about 4 to 5 days. April 26 just happened to be my first O. B. Appointment with the new O. B. Two because I was bleeding and my cervix was open. They didn't want to do an ultrasound. I could have pushed for it. But I think I was so in shock that I just did the hcg blood test and left. We pray that God will let us keep our child that I was bleeding for some other reason. But it wasn't his plan. I think going through the physical part was the hardest for me knowing that my body was in a way giving birth but to a child that was in heaven already I cried so much. But at the same time I was numb. So many emotions just rushing through me not to mention the horrible hormonal stuff. Uncharted territory that I just went through like a robot not knowing what to expect each day. I just prayed for God to be with me every step of the way. And he was. Your dream is such a cool thing. God is so good. We didn't know if our child was a boy or a girl, but I think it was a girl. I keep thinking girl and girl comes out when I talk about our child baby last name, I guess I won't know for sure until heaven. God has given me such comfort and peace. Even though I've been a total wreck emotionally. Just tonight when I was doing a prayer with our son, my husband is gone until tomorrow I was ending and he asked to pray for baby. We used to pray for the baby with him before we knew of our loss. Anyway, it was the sweetest thing. So we prayed as tears just wrote down my cheeks as they are. Now such a gift to me tonight. Then I read your story. We will be praying for your comfort. I'm so very sorry, June 3, 2016. This is what I read in my devotion today, blessed be the God and father of our Lord, jesus christ, the father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. For as we share abundantly in christ sufferings. So through christ we share abundantly and comfort to Second Corinthians one verse three through five. This was so encouraging to me. So wanted to pass it on. I also wanted to share something. My husband said that is really helping me when I get the emotions flowing. I told him I just wanted to curl up in a ball in my bed and never get up. He said that he needed me and our son needed me. This was early on, but it's really helped me stand strong when the sadness pulls me in. So maybe that will help you chuck needs you as well as your two beautiful little Children. Our babies are in the best hands. We could possibly dream. And though it hurts deep here on earth, we can definitely trust God to take care of our babies someday I'll probably write about it too. But I know sharing is very powerful. So share away continuing to pray for you guys anonymous mom, my dear friend expressed much of the same feelings I'd been feeling during the early weeks following the miscarriage. So I wanted to share her encouragement as well. Don't hesitate to share your story. It's more healing than you can imagine